Being Engaged.

Hey everyone!

So pretty much I tried to type this in a condensed version on a Facebook status but couldn't bring myself to word it right without it feeling too long for just a status update. That's why I love this blog, I can type forever and still not feel annoying haha.

Today was really awesome, Walker and I took our engagement photos. It hit me this month that our wedding will be happening in about five months. FIVE MONTHS. Seriously, nearly seven months ago Walker came home and proposed to me?! It feels like forever ago and just yesterday at the same time.

Now, I don't want to say that being engaged lost it's spark or importance, but being nineteen and twenty years old, our lives seem to be forever changing and little daily happenings can sometimes override the fact of a wedding that is happening further down the road.

Am I saying this right? I guess what I'm trying to say is being engaged just became normal. Not in a bad way, but not in a good way either. It's a really cool time in a relationship where all the ideas and dreams for you life are okay to think and aren't too out there because I mean hey, they're just ideas for now. But things like the move, work, etc. can sometimes get in the way of our thinking and valuing the state that we're in in life. We're about to get married. Like, changing my last name, gonna have babies with this guy one day, married.

I think being engaged can change a lot of things. 

I keep typing this all out and the words just don't make sense. I'm a little annoyed by that.

Whenever we got engaged I looked at everything in a more serious light. At first I would be afraid when we would argue because oh my goodness what if it's like this forever?! But at the same time when things would be awesome it's I can't wait to have this forever! Forever. That's what changes it. The idea of marrying Walker and being with him forever was always a thought and hope, and when it became real I over analyzed every little thing because, that my friends is what I do best.

I think now I'm to this point in the engagement that my hope for us is huge. One perk is us being so young, but in general there is so much confidence in our future together. The bad things have time to change, and we no longer have to feel like we're changing them all by ourselves. The good things will be there forever, and we'll have even more as the years go by.

Y'all, I'm so excited to see what God does in our relationship. 

I feel that we fit together like a two person puzzle, we challenge each other and help the other pursue their dreams or simply keep their fire going while all else seems dim.

This session today was a good reminder of the man I have in front of me and how blessed I am to have him. I think having the engagement session so late in the engagement helped us in that little plateau we were experiencing.

I love him, and I love being with him.

*sappy, slightly confusing and not well planned out post over*

Yay for a sneak peek of the session!!

Lovey Dovey.

I can't believe I haven't mention anything about my absolutely wonderful significant other on this blog yet. Well, his name is Walker and he is without a doubt the best person I've ever met. I put a picture of the promise ring he gave me on Valentine's Day. I've been looking at it a lot more recently, and really thinking about how this ring is a perfect representation of him for me. He has the best heart I've ever seen, a heart of gold. He would do anything for someone he loved, and he puts others before himself. This month will be our 10 month anniversary, which sounds like a short time, but there's something different about the way we click and work together. Let me explain a little bit: this time last year I was just being reintroduced to him. We had a class together junior year but never spoke a word to each other. In college we both had the same scholarship, and a mutual friend that got it with us, so we ended up spending quite a bit of time together. I remember for the first time that year guys were actually asking me out, and I even had guy friends when before I couldn't even imagine that. But even with the guys asking me out, even with the closest guy friends, the only person I wanted that attention from was Walker. Eventually I asked him to go see a movie with me because, lets be real, I'm impatient and I try to make things happen when I want them to, and he told me his girlfriend probably wouldn't be okay with that. Girlfriend. As soon as I hear that word from any guy it's like a switch goes off in my head the attraction I had for them disappears. I will never be the girl who messed up a good relationship, so I stayed away. Then, a funny thing happened. He started texting me more, and eventually asked me on a date. I called him out right away about the "girlfriend" and he said they had broken up just a couple days after I asked him about the movie. So we had our first date, and what really stuck out to me wasn't the date itself, but the fact that afterwards we came into my room and talked for a good 3 hours about our lives. I told him everything and he told me everything. I knew something was different right then. So, we begin dating officially and our families love us being together so that's always nice, and we didn't seem to annoy our friends too badly with PDA. About 4 months in I start thinking about moving out on my own...and how great it would be to have Walker with me. We found a cheap studio apartment and decided to move in the week after school ended. So at 6 months we were living together, and still are. It is so fantastic to have him to come home to. I've never had someone love me this much, and do so many little things for me. Don't get me wrong, we fight, but most of the time within 30 minutes we're back to normal and both apologize for being such buttheads. So, yeah, that's Walkie..or Walker ;)