Love Yourself.

So step two in the process I posted in my last blog is: Adore You. So this blog might sound a little bit like bragging, and I don't want it to come across that way. But I really need to build myself up and get that confidence back.
Probably my favorite thing about myself is that I'm always pushing myself to be better. If I do something lacking all of my effort I feel guilty, and next time I put my all into it, especially if it's something I really want.
Also, I've come a long freaking way in the past two years. If you could of seen me my senior year to now you probably wouldn't even think it was the same person. My outlook on life has changed, my independence, and my appearance.
I'm really good at figuring out what's good for me and what isn't. If I don't feel a passion for something, especially if it could greatly affect my future, I won't do it. Why put so much work into something that I don't want for the rest of my life?
I'm the go-to person. My goal in life is for people to know they can come to me with any problem, any sadness, any joy, anything at all and I'll listen. The test for me in this is to not get bored or annoying, but to really practice that heart for people that I long for.
I may not know exactly what I want to do in the future, but anytime I find a true interest I practice it to really figure out if it's for me.

I'm just really stinking proud of myself. So much growth has happened in the past 5 years, and this year of being 19 has been the absolute best. I just have to keep growing, and i know it's completely and 100% possible :)

Also, I'm at the beach right now!

This is me and Walker when we first got here on Saturday. I'm here with my parents and him, and it's been really great :)

I will say being somewhat in my parent's control is difficult to handle after being moved out for almost 4 months. I just have to remain grateful for them because they basically gave me and Walker this trip and doing a little back for them is the least we could do.

5 More Days.

Only 5 more days of work until I leave for vacation. 5 days more of life all in all really. I'm really hoping this vacation goes well and is exactly what I've been needing. A week off from everything...except some homework..but I could get my due assignments finished all in one day and still have 6 to relax with. I'm hoping to find peace while just doing nothing, not having a schedule, and finally being able to breathe. Not saying that my home/work life is awful, but I just really need time. I'm about to be 20 and what everyone warned me about, that being the real world is setting. No more handouts, no more putting off, and no more putting what you want before what you need. I still have to learn all of this, and there's a lot I need to know how to do right, but the role is one that I enjoy. I really like a challenge in life, without one I get bored and do impulsive (sometimes stupid) things. But I've been so busy all summer, all year really, and I just need a time out from life. My expectations are that by the end of it I'll miss the business and realize the lazy life isn't for me, but a week of it can't hurt, right?