Being Engaged.

Hey everyone!

So pretty much I tried to type this in a condensed version on a Facebook status but couldn't bring myself to word it right without it feeling too long for just a status update. That's why I love this blog, I can type forever and still not feel annoying haha.

Today was really awesome, Walker and I took our engagement photos. It hit me this month that our wedding will be happening in about five months. FIVE MONTHS. Seriously, nearly seven months ago Walker came home and proposed to me?! It feels like forever ago and just yesterday at the same time.

Now, I don't want to say that being engaged lost it's spark or importance, but being nineteen and twenty years old, our lives seem to be forever changing and little daily happenings can sometimes override the fact of a wedding that is happening further down the road.

Am I saying this right? I guess what I'm trying to say is being engaged just became normal. Not in a bad way, but not in a good way either. It's a really cool time in a relationship where all the ideas and dreams for you life are okay to think and aren't too out there because I mean hey, they're just ideas for now. But things like the move, work, etc. can sometimes get in the way of our thinking and valuing the state that we're in in life. We're about to get married. Like, changing my last name, gonna have babies with this guy one day, married.

I think being engaged can change a lot of things. 

I keep typing this all out and the words just don't make sense. I'm a little annoyed by that.

Whenever we got engaged I looked at everything in a more serious light. At first I would be afraid when we would argue because oh my goodness what if it's like this forever?! But at the same time when things would be awesome it's I can't wait to have this forever! Forever. That's what changes it. The idea of marrying Walker and being with him forever was always a thought and hope, and when it became real I over analyzed every little thing because, that my friends is what I do best.

I think now I'm to this point in the engagement that my hope for us is huge. One perk is us being so young, but in general there is so much confidence in our future together. The bad things have time to change, and we no longer have to feel like we're changing them all by ourselves. The good things will be there forever, and we'll have even more as the years go by.

Y'all, I'm so excited to see what God does in our relationship. 

I feel that we fit together like a two person puzzle, we challenge each other and help the other pursue their dreams or simply keep their fire going while all else seems dim.

This session today was a good reminder of the man I have in front of me and how blessed I am to have him. I think having the engagement session so late in the engagement helped us in that little plateau we were experiencing.

I love him, and I love being with him.

*sappy, slightly confusing and not well planned out post over*

Yay for a sneak peek of the session!!

Happy April!

I really can't believe this year is already a quarter of the way through. Nothing has really changed much in my life, which is a really weird thing for me to say because normally there's something new around every corner. It's definitely a blessing because my life needed a good rest. School, work, and time with family/friends/Walker are the things that are most important to me right now.

I'm going to take this post away from nutrition, and just talk about my life. I love journaling and writing down my days, I just get so bored writing down on a daily basis.

First off, the wedding! We have our venue, The Shady Valley Golf Club in Arlington, and it's pretty awesome and beautiful. Hopefully on that day we'll have nice enough weather to have it outside! I have my dress and shoes, and an idea for what the guys are going to wear. Any day now Walker and I will go cake testing to see what we really want, and you know, to have an excuse to eat some awesome cake. In March I didn't do much planning, but April I can hopefully get some more done. On the 13th we'll finally be getting our engagement pictures done which I am so so so excited about!

Let's see...oh! Our new apartment!! Oh my goodness y'all, I am beyond excited for the move. When we went and searched for our first apartment (the one we're currently in) we lucked out and only stopped by one place and went with it. Now looking back, I'm not sure if lucked out was the right phrase...if there's any advice I can give anyone it's this: don't live in a studio apartment, it isn't worth the price. Space is a thing every human needs. Now, onto our new one! We were really scared we wouldn't be able to afford it and had other apartments in mind, honestly we just went to these to look at them..kind of like window shopping. We loved the area, the management, and the layout of the apartment so much, not to mention if you signed the lease the same day you viewed the apartment you got your application fees and admin fee waved, saving us about $100-250 more dollars! We went home and added up all of our expenses that are there and unchangeable/necessary and found that we could live there comfortable which was surprising to both of us.

After living nearly a year in a studio apartment I have to say moving onto not only more space, but a nicer complex is huge to us. We both work full time and it's nice to see that what we've been working for has earned us something greater. I really hope any of what I'm saying does not come off as bragging, whenever I'm excited I tend to not shut up about it haha. If anything I hope you see how important it is to us and how proud of ourselves we are to really be reaching a big "growing up" part of our lives.

Lastly, work! Walker didn't get into SORM (school of retail management), but he remains hopeful and proud of himself for what he's accomplished only in a year of being with the company. I have to say, seeing him remain optimistic is a huge reason why I love him. He's still working on ways to grow in his department so whenever he feels ready to apply again he'll have even more experience behind him. As for me, I love my department and I think about growing myself in it every now and then, really I just want to wait until the wedding is done before I throw any other thing on myself. Both of us are so incredibly thankful to work for such a good company, especially at a young age.

So if you know of any awesome cake places in Fort Worth/Arlington let me know so me and Walker can go stuff our faces with cake haha. Also keep us in your prayers as we take a big step on in moving to a new complex and grow ourselves in work.

Thanks for taking the time to read :)